Well you guessed it, number two is on the way for us, and we are SO excited. Bryce and I both have siblings pretty close to us in age and we love it. We are so excited for little Luke man to have a best buddy.
I just have to say, I was hesitant to post about this. I know so many people who struggle with pregnancy and fertility issues. I’m sure that some of our readers fall into that camp, and if you do, I just want you to know that miracles happen, don’t give up.
It’s interesting how much easier it is to have faith for someone else. I am struggling with my own fears right now. Our son Luke was born in his 34th week and was whisked away to the newborn intensive care unit before I could even glimpse him.
We were so blessed in so many ways. All of his preterm complications were very minor and he only had to stay in the NICU for 8 days, which all the doctors said was miraculous. The NICU staff in our hospital were angels, and it made me so grateful for modern medicine. So many sweet babies are saved in that place. Bryce and I learned a lot in the NICU about being parents and about what it feels like to watch a child struggle. The first few months of Luke’s life were SO hard, for him and us.
Luke Bryce Bailey at 5 days old. This picture doesn’t do justice to how small he really was.
Due to the circumstances of Luke’s labor, it’s likely (though not certain) that the reason he came early was a result of my genetics. I am so afraid this baby will come early. It is constantly in the back of my mind. It is so hard for me to hear pregnant women say they wish their baby would come early. People tell me I am so lucky that I wasn’t even pregnant for 8 months. I tell myself that they really just don’t know what they are talking about. We pray every night this baby will go full term.
One of my favorite quotes is from one of my favorite essayists, Montaigne. To paraphrase him, the quote is, “if you fear suffering, you are already suffering from what you fear.” How true.
I am going to try to let my fears go.
Honestly, it really doesn’t make sense to worry about things you have no control over. By worrying about something that hasn’t even happened, not only am I stressing myself out, but I miss out on the wonderful pregnancy experience, and waste my last months with my sweet, healthy, little family of three.
Baby Bailey #2 is due December 30th. “Come what may, and love it.” -Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin